Thursday, March 26, 2009
Picture Perfect @ West LA
Pictures from near my calculus class which takes place from 7-10pm
Pictures from near my calculus class which takes place from 7-10pm
Pictures from near my calculus class which takes place from 7-10pm
Bible Study (Genesis and the Fall of Man)
These are just notes that I literally wrote while I was reading the Bible. They make sense in my head, but that doesn't mean they are coherent at all. If you have n e questions or would like to spark a discussion please feel free to comment or contact me on Twitter (SCeCeW), Facebook (CeCe CynthiaMarie) or my email (cece.cynthiamarie@gmail.com)
Genesis 1
-The repeated use of the word “good” to describe God’s creations. God sees they are good and yet he continues to build on it. Good does not mean no room for improvement. Good means it is just what it needs to be to prepare for the next step. Can things be perfect even if only for that moment?
-Genesis 1:25-27“God said, ‘Let us make man in our image’” Perhaps speaking to everything he has created. He could not be the Creator had He not Created. That is to say He is a reflection of the “good” that he has created and so He is not creating man from a vision like everything else, but rather in an image as in to fit what has already been created.
-Genesis 1:28 “rule over” Isn’t there a scripture about man “ruling over” his wife???
-Eve could have children from the beginning
Adam and Eve
-Begins on the 2nd day? Vegetation came on the 3rd day, but it says “no shrub of the field had yet appeared on the earth and no plant of the field had yet sprung up,” (Gen. 2:5) But “streams came up from the earth and watered the whole surface of the ground-“ (Gen. 2:6) Even though there was not ground until the 3rd day?
-“It is not good for man to be alone.” So there is such thing as “not good” within God’s Creations.
-What is the significance of man naming God’s creatures? Proof of love? Proof of power?
-Does Adam name himself?
-“A man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and they will become one flesh” Does this imply woman will not leave her father and mother until her husband is ready? Does this imply “soul-mates”? There is a flesh that will make our bond tangible?
-What if it had been written in present tense?
-Why does Eve misquote God??
-“When the woman saw that the fruit of the tree was…desirable for gaining wisdom, she took some and ate it.” (Gen. 3:6)
-Why are wisdom and knowledge so forbidden?
-What did the Serpant have to gain @ the fall of man? POWER?? ←Theme??
-To know good and evil means you can choose good or evil. But everything God made was “good”…
-“Your desire will be for your husband and he will **rule over you” (Gen. 3:16) to be ruled is punishment.
-“He must not…take also from the tree of life and eat, and live forever.” (Gen. 3:23) Humans were always meant to die.
Genesis 1
-The repeated use of the word “good” to describe God’s creations. God sees they are good and yet he continues to build on it. Good does not mean no room for improvement. Good means it is just what it needs to be to prepare for the next step. Can things be perfect even if only for that moment?
-Genesis 1:25-27“God said, ‘Let us make man in our image’” Perhaps speaking to everything he has created. He could not be the Creator had He not Created. That is to say He is a reflection of the “good” that he has created and so He is not creating man from a vision like everything else, but rather in an image as in to fit what has already been created.
-Genesis 1:28 “rule over” Isn’t there a scripture about man “ruling over” his wife???
-Eve could have children from the beginning
Adam and Eve
-Begins on the 2nd day? Vegetation came on the 3rd day, but it says “no shrub of the field had yet appeared on the earth and no plant of the field had yet sprung up,” (Gen. 2:5) But “streams came up from the earth and watered the whole surface of the ground-“ (Gen. 2:6) Even though there was not ground until the 3rd day?
-“It is not good for man to be alone.” So there is such thing as “not good” within God’s Creations.
-What is the significance of man naming God’s creatures? Proof of love? Proof of power?
-Does Adam name himself?
-“A man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and they will become one flesh” Does this imply woman will not leave her father and mother until her husband is ready? Does this imply “soul-mates”? There is a flesh that will make our bond tangible?
-What if it had been written in present tense?
-Why does Eve misquote God??
-“When the woman saw that the fruit of the tree was…desirable for gaining wisdom, she took some and ate it.” (Gen. 3:6)
-Why are wisdom and knowledge so forbidden?
-What did the Serpant have to gain @ the fall of man? POWER?? ←Theme??
-To know good and evil means you can choose good or evil. But everything God made was “good”…
-“Your desire will be for your husband and he will **rule over you” (Gen. 3:16) to be ruled is punishment.
-“He must not…take also from the tree of life and eat, and live forever.” (Gen. 3:23) Humans were always meant to die.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Monday, March 23, 2009
PHOTO JOURNAL!!!
Sorry I've been slacking on the bloggage. I've been thinking about documenting the questions that I come up with as I read the Bible. Yes, cover to cover. I would hope for some feedback and conversation. You guys think we could do that?
Welp here's the photo journal as promised :)
As you may or may not have noticed, I've kind of started including pieces of the car in the image. Do we like this more or less?
But as for now, here we go with more pictures. And as you may have noticed, my title image has changed, and yes, that is the boo. BTW he's FRIKKEN FRAKKEN AMAZING! You may recognize him from the 2007 YouthSpeaks Bay Area team. He is now a member of the 2008 Compton Youth Slam Team. He won our slam last night with TWO FREESTYLES! While the rest of us were going over poems we've been practicing for about a year in our head....he FREESTYLED and beat us all! How great is he?
Welp here's the photo journal as promised :)
As you may or may not have noticed, I've kind of started including pieces of the car in the image. Do we like this more or less?
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
My Eyes Are... (FREEWRITE)
My eyes are what Pecola picked at scars on her heart for
Secondary colors always seem to be secondary witnesses
And all she wished for was pretty eyes
She wanted to see the pretty in people
But my eyes are what Pecola sold herself for
And can honestly paint pictures of people's ugliness more accurately than most because they are two-way mirrors
Showing me myself in their flaws
I am the D.A and the Defendant Accused
You think I'd be used to seeing in hazel by now
But hazy memories of my blue eyed childhood seem to resurface as colors blur into Halos
My eyes are 20/20 with an astigmatism so I literally see figurative Halos above even the most malicious bodies if they stand in the right light
But my x-ray contact lenses see to their souls
And maybe I don't really wear contacts but I felt the need to make that metaphor because my gaze makes contact with everything Pecola didn't know she didn't want to see
You'd think it was Christmas if you saw all the times green lightbulbs contrasted red garlands on my skin
Lost seaweed drowning in saline break water on my eyelashes
What your eyes look like effects you see
I see envy comes in brown, black, and white
Not just green
And I see contact lenses that give you a chance to see like me
But you are on the shore
Visualizing my journey with crushed emeralds for kaleidoscope imitations of my telescopes
I'm out at sea
Searching for pieces of something more than what I'm seen as to build myself with
I will not be the reincarnation of Pecola's dreams
But I cannot be what I cannot see
I cannot love what does not love me
Lucky me
This world loves light skin, light eyes, and hair that can pretend to be European
But the stories that come with those are banished so I swim after them
Gotta keep my head above water so my high beam eyes don't get wet
Shining in reflective hues
So when you look at me...you're really seeing you
Secondary colors always seem to be secondary witnesses
And all she wished for was pretty eyes
She wanted to see the pretty in people
But my eyes are what Pecola sold herself for
And can honestly paint pictures of people's ugliness more accurately than most because they are two-way mirrors
Showing me myself in their flaws
I am the D.A and the Defendant Accused
You think I'd be used to seeing in hazel by now
But hazy memories of my blue eyed childhood seem to resurface as colors blur into Halos
My eyes are 20/20 with an astigmatism so I literally see figurative Halos above even the most malicious bodies if they stand in the right light
But my x-ray contact lenses see to their souls
And maybe I don't really wear contacts but I felt the need to make that metaphor because my gaze makes contact with everything Pecola didn't know she didn't want to see
You'd think it was Christmas if you saw all the times green lightbulbs contrasted red garlands on my skin
Lost seaweed drowning in saline break water on my eyelashes
What your eyes look like effects you see
I see envy comes in brown, black, and white
Not just green
And I see contact lenses that give you a chance to see like me
But you are on the shore
Visualizing my journey with crushed emeralds for kaleidoscope imitations of my telescopes
I'm out at sea
Searching for pieces of something more than what I'm seen as to build myself with
I will not be the reincarnation of Pecola's dreams
But I cannot be what I cannot see
I cannot love what does not love me
Lucky me
This world loves light skin, light eyes, and hair that can pretend to be European
But the stories that come with those are banished so I swim after them
Gotta keep my head above water so my high beam eyes don't get wet
Shining in reflective hues
So when you look at me...you're really seeing you
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Distance (ROUGH! FEEDBACK PLEASE!)
You can leave your feedback here or email it to cece.cynthiamarie@gmail.com
As defined, distance can be between 2 times
As in the distance between the moment I decide to kiss you and the moment you decide to kiss me back
So slight we hardly notice it
Except that one time
In Jack in the Box
When you refused to lend me ur lips to taste and it all seemed like a game but really....
That thought scared the shit out of me.
We sat there for hours laughing as I held your nose in an attempt to claim a kiss in the split seconds you struggled for breath
The speaker box of a spoken word artist gaping for a time almost as slight as the distance between those decisions
All I wanted was to use my saliva to leave my love behind
Behind, firstly, as in after our lips parted…after my car left your driveway
And behind, secondly, as in behind your cheeks
Inside the sacred temple that is your mouth
Where words boil 2gether and trade connotations for contexts and we end up with painfully delicious depictions of the world as seen by a genius
Your mouth is more of a melting pot than my blood line
The distance between my great great great great grandfather who got on that boat from Germany as a Jew and got off as a Protestant and I who won't even sacrifice my religion for love.
Proof that distance can also be between beliefs.
And this, too, is by definition.
In fact the dictionary gives the example "Our philosophies are a long distance apart."
As in, that one word:
His name,
Puts you a Grand Canyon’s walk away from me
And I don't have the heart to make that journey without you
And I would never ask you to walk that distance for me
So listen closely to what I'm about to request from you
For us
Can you believe in your heart that Jesus is God
And that when I say God I mean Jesus
Even if I don't know it.
I don’t have the heart to walk this distance without you
And I'm trying to beat on the keys of my phone to create some replacement rhythm but my battery can only last so long
The distance between that last breath you took and when I started holding your nose is too long
You need to breathe
And distance is supposed to give you the space to do that
But I don’t want you to have to breathe
Let me kiss you and like inexperienced exes pump carbon dioxide into your 3rd chamber of the organ that leads the choir of my body
But I never got past the C in CPR:
Cardio
My heart
Is hurting
And I know yours is too.
You love me
I know you do
And I know you love Him too
But I love you
And it looks to me like ur doing what you hate that they do
They hated in the name of Jesus
They hurt in the name of Jesus
They killed....
In the name of Jesus
I'm hating myself
In the name of Jesus.
You are hurting me
In the name of Jesus.
You're killing us...
In the name of Jesus.
And I don't have the heart to walk this distance without you but I would walk this journey on my hands with you
For us
I will come to you if only you would stop pushing me away
You're referencing the wrong Will Smith movie
You're Benjamin
As in the great souled Thomas
Not Hancock
Decreasing this distance will not make you weak
I thought you were God's treat to me
Apparently this was God, teasing me
His mirage built into the depths of this Grand Canyon
So when I was low and I thought I couldn’t get any lower
There was salvation
But the only soul salvation I really got
Was a portable foot massager in a church raffle
Non-believers r not worthy of feeling happiness
Just the temporary sensation of taste
And so I will savor the taste of your morning breath as my memory of unconditional companionship
Because loss is the glossy finish on the gates of my hell
When my dad was smoking crack he used to say,
"What the fuck do I care about going to hell? I've been to hell and back more than once. I've been broke as hell, cold as hell, high as hell, mad as hell, and everything in between."
And if this...
Losing you....
Is Earth....
Hell will be my vacation
Even the fact that I can say that
Brings us to the most simple definition of distance
Space
The vast space between Brentwood and LA
The immeasurable, unimaginable distance between the good and bad place
You can be Huck Finn if you'll let me be Jim
Best friends
From 2 worlds a solar system's distance away
I'm the slave about to be shipped to New Orleans
You're the Eagle amongst cocky chickens
But that weekend
The simple distance was closed
And we found each other on that same remote island
Of Jack in the Box
And we started on this journey together
Because when our lips finally touched, time stopped and let us cross Commitment street in the bay
And when we hit that fork in the river we were on the same raft
We went the same wrong way when we were alone in that box
And we felt the same new kind of safe with all those people watching in Jack in the Box
The mountain was never expected to go to Muhammad
But I don’t have the heart to make that journey without you
You are my heart
And how can I get over a mountain I cannot get in proximity with
How can we be close if we can’t close any of these distances?
As defined, distance can be between 2 times
As in the distance between the moment I decide to kiss you and the moment you decide to kiss me back
So slight we hardly notice it
Except that one time
In Jack in the Box
When you refused to lend me ur lips to taste and it all seemed like a game but really....
That thought scared the shit out of me.
We sat there for hours laughing as I held your nose in an attempt to claim a kiss in the split seconds you struggled for breath
The speaker box of a spoken word artist gaping for a time almost as slight as the distance between those decisions
All I wanted was to use my saliva to leave my love behind
Behind, firstly, as in after our lips parted…after my car left your driveway
And behind, secondly, as in behind your cheeks
Inside the sacred temple that is your mouth
Where words boil 2gether and trade connotations for contexts and we end up with painfully delicious depictions of the world as seen by a genius
Your mouth is more of a melting pot than my blood line
The distance between my great great great great grandfather who got on that boat from Germany as a Jew and got off as a Protestant and I who won't even sacrifice my religion for love.
Proof that distance can also be between beliefs.
And this, too, is by definition.
In fact the dictionary gives the example "Our philosophies are a long distance apart."
As in, that one word:
His name,
Puts you a Grand Canyon’s walk away from me
And I don't have the heart to make that journey without you
And I would never ask you to walk that distance for me
So listen closely to what I'm about to request from you
For us
Can you believe in your heart that Jesus is God
And that when I say God I mean Jesus
Even if I don't know it.
I don’t have the heart to walk this distance without you
And I'm trying to beat on the keys of my phone to create some replacement rhythm but my battery can only last so long
The distance between that last breath you took and when I started holding your nose is too long
You need to breathe
And distance is supposed to give you the space to do that
But I don’t want you to have to breathe
Let me kiss you and like inexperienced exes pump carbon dioxide into your 3rd chamber of the organ that leads the choir of my body
But I never got past the C in CPR:
Cardio
My heart
Is hurting
And I know yours is too.
You love me
I know you do
And I know you love Him too
But I love you
And it looks to me like ur doing what you hate that they do
They hated in the name of Jesus
They hurt in the name of Jesus
They killed....
In the name of Jesus
I'm hating myself
In the name of Jesus.
You are hurting me
In the name of Jesus.
You're killing us...
In the name of Jesus.
And I don't have the heart to walk this distance without you but I would walk this journey on my hands with you
For us
I will come to you if only you would stop pushing me away
You're referencing the wrong Will Smith movie
You're Benjamin
As in the great souled Thomas
Not Hancock
Decreasing this distance will not make you weak
I thought you were God's treat to me
Apparently this was God, teasing me
His mirage built into the depths of this Grand Canyon
So when I was low and I thought I couldn’t get any lower
There was salvation
But the only soul salvation I really got
Was a portable foot massager in a church raffle
Non-believers r not worthy of feeling happiness
Just the temporary sensation of taste
And so I will savor the taste of your morning breath as my memory of unconditional companionship
Because loss is the glossy finish on the gates of my hell
When my dad was smoking crack he used to say,
"What the fuck do I care about going to hell? I've been to hell and back more than once. I've been broke as hell, cold as hell, high as hell, mad as hell, and everything in between."
And if this...
Losing you....
Is Earth....
Hell will be my vacation
Even the fact that I can say that
Brings us to the most simple definition of distance
Space
The vast space between Brentwood and LA
The immeasurable, unimaginable distance between the good and bad place
You can be Huck Finn if you'll let me be Jim
Best friends
From 2 worlds a solar system's distance away
I'm the slave about to be shipped to New Orleans
You're the Eagle amongst cocky chickens
But that weekend
The simple distance was closed
And we found each other on that same remote island
Of Jack in the Box
And we started on this journey together
Because when our lips finally touched, time stopped and let us cross Commitment street in the bay
And when we hit that fork in the river we were on the same raft
We went the same wrong way when we were alone in that box
And we felt the same new kind of safe with all those people watching in Jack in the Box
The mountain was never expected to go to Muhammad
But I don’t have the heart to make that journey without you
You are my heart
And how can I get over a mountain I cannot get in proximity with
How can we be close if we can’t close any of these distances?
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